Drowned Feeling

This picture was taken in the highlands, amidst the cold breeze and foggy morning...the chill numbs the feeling. Reminds me of how I tried to drown my still alive feeling towards a guy.
There were so many lonely nights alone in my bedroom thinking of "what ifs" and the thoughts of "I could have done something: but it was too late.
Anyway...they were just drowned feelings now. I moved on.
I wondered though, if he does?

Sometimes

Sometimes I think time passes by so fast, it's hard to catch up.
There are so many things the I would like to do, but time is so short.
Or...
It's just me.
There might be a need for me to organize my time. To find time for all the things I want to do. It is often said that we have only a moment in this world, that whatever we can do to make it all worthwhile, we must not hesistate.
To live to the fullest, to love unconditionally, to care for one another, to experience pain, joy and sorrow. Laugh, befriend, enjoy every moment with family and friends. Do silly things, watch the sun set or walk into the rain.
Now I know, time is not short, nor it runs fast. I'm the one who needs to catch up. I am the one who has to move.
Silly me.

Relationship

It's been quite sometime since my last relationship. It didn't end up the way I always wanted it.

It didn't last. I admit I am to blame. I took it for granted and my partner got tired of loving me.
It's so lonely when you had it for 6 years, well, almost. The longing and the presence eats you up.
Unless you focus on something else. Which what I am doing, though the pain is still there.
I guess happiness will come now, to both of us. In one way or another.

Will it?

Thoughts

I have many thoughts about a lot of things.

There were thoughts of the past, present and of the future.
Sometimes I consult my Angels. I asked for divine enlightenment.
Most often I pray.

I get afraid of the future. Bothered by the past. Worry of the present.
But enlightenment comes in the most unexpected way.
Calmness. Peace. Thoughts.

Everything will always turn out alright.
Even in the hardest times.
Just a matter of how you deal with it. Positive thoughts.

They're just thoughts.

Hoping

It's been a few months.
I find it hard, then, to let go.
But all is becoming clear now, it had to happen. Otherwise I wouldn't know what do I really like.

Too bad, too sad, but it had to happen.
Mistakes are lessons, not to be repeated.
Yet, mistakes makes us more human. In touch with our inner feelings and wisdom. It makes us grow.

I can still make mistakes. But here's to hoping for a better me.

Dreamy

As you watch how fishes glide through the water, tranquil, peaceful...dreamy.

Dreamy.

I dreamt of many things, and making them come true is my fondest wish.
Some profound, some simple.
More of wish list before I go.

But I believe to make them all come true, there are three things needed:
Number one, the determination to achieve then. I believe when someone wants something so bad, fate will make a way.
Number two, seek people who can help you in one way or another.
Number three, have the patience to wait for the right moment and be sensitive enough to know if the opportunity is already knocking at your door.

Hello

Hello, I am Carlo Magno (Charlemagne) and welcome to my blog. I really am not sure yet what this blog will be, but I will try to make it as interesting as possible. Of course, mostly about me and my personal viewsand opinions on many things. Feel free to come by and message me for your comments. Thanks.