Drowned Feeling

This picture was taken in the highlands, amidst the cold breeze and foggy morning...the chill numbs the feeling. Reminds me of how I tried to drown my still alive feeling towards a guy.
There were so many lonely nights alone in my bedroom thinking of "what ifs" and the thoughts of "I could have done something: but it was too late.
Anyway...they were just drowned feelings now. I moved on.
I wondered though, if he does?